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1. plans sometimes fall through for ridiculous reasons, or rather, no reasons at all.

2. a cuban nightmare comes true. terrifyingly slow connection.

3. the other is still in the drawer and looking at it, i drift towards the road not taken.

and am very poised to push away the little things i have so far.

reexamined.

4. i might as well marry you, just to taste the taste of europe.

but what if europe only tastes bitter, without any sweet attached?

i might as well marry you, just to feel safe and empty.

but what if the memory is indelible, without being quite intelligible?

5. why does it, for a woman, have to take one to leave one?

6. a bitch who once in while can manage to raise above her own bitchiness.

7. hanoi is no longer loved, not because it is no longer beautiful. rather, it is no longer loved because it remains absolutely blasé about its own loss of beauty, because it doesnt mind parading its own decaying and ugliness.

8. a ... .... and kind-hearted man is hard to find.

the classic european beauty

irene jacobs (as in la double vie de véronique)

erika marozsán (the sumptuously beautiful hostess in ein lied von liebe und tod)

a bonus to the (.)(.)-obsessing gents: the two ladies have gorgeous (and real) pairs.

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it was the fact that i was by myself.

it was the fact that i was by myself in a strange city.

it was the fact that i was by myself in a strange city in a winter day.

it was the fact that i was away from the dying hanoi.

it was the fact that i miss you yet cannot really say.

im not trying to emulate the experience.

rather the experience waltzes in on me.