2009/06/24

1. unbearable lightness of being. i had this book already (a birthday gift from s.) so can i just pay for the front cover?

2. breakfast at tiffanys. just came back from re-watching the movie. audrey hepburn is chic as ever, which is the only great thing about this movie. the music is great too but somehow, it doesnt quite click. lula mae barnes singing moon river? please, gimme a break!!! i get frustrated by this hollywood-trademarked romanticism every time, and especially more so when i miss the states and long to start the lines "i am always drawn back to places where i have lived" again.

3. great gatsby.

4. catcher in the rye. who knows but holden caufield could have fit in well with the dead poets society?

2009/06/23

1. im hopeless. im so dark even the strongest tanners refuse to work on me. now im sad.

2. i find my life resemble the curious case of benjamin button in a way that certain things in my life, when compared to others', tend to come in a reverse order. like while most girls have to kiss some frogs before they can kiss their prince charming, i kissed my prince charming then the frogs. and im sure the list (of frogs) will go on. im doomed.

3. i must have watched das leben der anderen at least three times by now. the germans, once in a while, really know how to make a hell of a movie. i wish i could master the language.

but they kinda have a rather "different" sense of aesthetics, no?

4. and yes, one more thing. it seems like gai viet duc dam dang hon gai ams. muốn hiểu thế nào thì hiểu.

2009/06/16



why do i have to wear a helmet (which is forever and ever ugly) while pretty things like this (the hat, not the man) are still in existence?

my next years resolution would be to own a car so that i can wear any kinds of head bands, fedoras, beanies, berets, sun hats, and other you-name-it that i want.




2009/06/15

"its ok to have body odor. its just not ok to not do something with it".

"body odor" is short for "natural body odor" (henceforth NBO) and "do something" can be understood as "put on some kind of deodorant". now that we are on the same page interpreting the related concepts, let the discussion begin. and since i have been living in vietnam for most of my life, the discussion is gonna be limited to the context of vietnam only.

an average person here, for some reason, tend to sweat less and thus, emit less and lighter body odor (if not at all) than caucasians and africans. so having NBO here could be perceived as something rather unnatural, something repugnant, weird, hated. its just so NOT ok to have NBO here. and since deodorants were not much available, popular, acceptable and affordable ten years back, i had to suffer through my puberty being picked on by my sister and cousins all the time (and this is just one thing i was being picked on for. and to be honest with you, i have a rather traumatic childhoold).

that was until i left vietnam for america. i was opened up to a whole new world where deodorants becomes the most trusted, indispensible and beloved friend someone can ever ask for. you find that little precious thing everywhere: in gym bags, in lockers, in bathrooms, in SUVs. cream, roll-on, solid, or gel, you choose it. axe, gillette, rexona, dove, you choose it next. flavors of peach, apple, strawberry, non-flavors, you choose it again. everyone is doing it - men do it, women do it, young guys do it, school girls do it and you know what the best part of it is: they dont have to hide it. people lift up their arm, rub the cool, smooth, fragrant surface against the sweaty, possibly hairy area called the armpit, close their eyes, and savor the moment. it is as normal as sex and better still, no catholics will try to persuade you that it is a sin.

fast forward. i came back home to find vietnam catching up with the rest of the world not only economically but also socially and culturally. doimoi finally welcomed the influx of deodorants. and with it the tolerance towards things not social norms (but condoms, pads and tampons are still placed in black plastic bags at the counter). i finally have the long-awaited freedom to choose my own stink stick in stores without my face getting red. i can argue which brand offers the best quality and flavors. and i have my revenge as the weather gets dismally heated and my cousins now ask to use my stick for a change.

can my home country get any better?? can my life get any better??

so yeah, my first sentence already sums up my philosophy and explains my reconciliation with life these days. not everyone is born paris hilton or gisele bundchen. so just embrace what you love about yourself (take me, i love my hair now that its curls fall loosely past my shoulders, i adore my horny little feet, and i kiss my cute tiny fingers goodnight everynight) and do what you can to improve the rest (like, i can do nothing, absolutely nothing, to make my pathetic legs actually leggier, but i might be able to pull something off to make my skin softer, and once i have enough in my savings, i can certainly get a boob job to boost my boobs from aa to dd).

enjoy!

ps: this post is meant to entertain and tự sướng. for more scientific info on body odor, please google. or you can start here.

2009/06/12


note on video: this is until the time is through by five several years ago. i will have another post in praise of mtv and the boyband sensation another day.

i have been wanting to write these thoughts off for a long time yet having to refrain myself from doing so as a way to keep myself emotionally in check and focused on something important, something that requires a cool head rather than a warm heart but also something i am sure of.

ok.

since when have i learned to refrain myself from writing when i feel like it? or maybe its just that i lack time.

since when have i learned to keep myself emotionally in check while all along i could have willingly entrapped and ruptured myself into yet another mental breakdown? or maybe its just that i bore enough gains and losses by them.

since when have i started to discount everyones stories as i have no patience left for their dramatization, if not fabrication? or maybe its just that i am looking for something genuine, something that is able to truly touch the soul and glorify the mind.

(ngoài lề 01: nhớ có lần hồi cấp 2, thực ra cũng chỉ khoảng lớp 7, lớp 8 là cùng, có đứa phát biểu trong giờ văn một câu dư lày "không còn tình thì còn nghĩa" mình choáng nặng, bụng bảo dạ "con này được". giờ nghĩ lại, chắc quái gì nó đã thực sự hiểu nó nói cái gì hay chỉ là nói cho nó kêu).

since when have i no longer cared whether i matter to anyone or whether anyone matter to me, that their shiny human existence to me is as hollowed as their feelings of love and hatred are trivial, as their acts of jealousy and empathy are mediocre? or maybe its just that i need a new face.

(ngoài lề 02: cũng tương tự như trên. hồi xin vào thực tập ở e. bình thường e ko nhận sinh viên thực tập hè, may lần đấy có người quen cộng với một port folio quá đẹp (chả việc éo gì fải giả vờ khiêm tốn vớ vẩn khi toàn thiên hạ tranh nhau đi đáng bóng bản thân. cúi mãi đau lưng bỏ mịe) nên được cân nhắc xem xét. cũng fải làm test (điểm cao ngất ngưởng, chỉ ra vài lỗi sai trong đề thi), cũng fỏng vấn toàn technical questions chứ chẳng phải mấy câu your strengths and weaknesses như đa số bây giờ (trả lời trơn tru đâu ra đấy), và cũng biết kết quả luôn (vì fỏng vấn với partner có tiếng nói quyết định mừ) như đa số trường hợp vào trái mùa. nhưng khi một đứa bạn khá thân biết chuyện, phang cho một câu, đại loại, "đúng là xin thì mới được thế". cảm giác guilty vì quen biết nhờ vả for a while trước khi quyết định kệ mịe nó, mình xứng đáng và chả tội éo gì ko đứng trên vai người khổng lồ là mẹ. càng nghĩ lại càng đúng).

since when have i realized all this?

and are they a good thing? in some way, yes. and in some way, no. but ultimately, i do believe changes are always for better.

 

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